my hollow life

evrtydayw hen i wpak uap im goto ym caomtpur atnd cehk t2o seemi fa atyon ahs sade nethng to mea ion tish wepsiet or aon fomrsping http://www.formspring.me/lonlycapricorn adn tehn i se theaty tehr ainst neting tehre adn i wam sda a lktilte adn i wakte ot wsee if tehr wil  b usm oif iw watie abit btu tehre aren t ane. so i jsut gaota kep tryng

i taked to twu pepls on fomprsig toh aerhd tey sem niece som anybe i jsut ned ot try takneg t mrore peples adnt ethen peples wil want to talkw tom e to;/,,

wen iw as otu toedy i swa a buhcna doflins swimging arond arnd i amwlost wtnt adn tred tpo say helos toy htem btut i gotsn ervos adn sjut wachd temh fomr beihnd sum corls./.i howpe teyhg com baek i liekd washcing tehem

iev ben trtyng to2 tasrt makeng freisnd isted of wateng fro fernds tof idns me os i m gona tryt taklin t peaple mror awten adn arond my caev/. i ben treying fro a fewe weks naow adns i gtot a seansemeno adn a jelysfish tontot gnor me i teihnk tehyr m y fredsn noaw/.l' i evern fodn a spnoj ataht luked kjanda liek oranj s ot ath wil b oranj2 adn b emy new freend horday.l. i be n tyrign t ogtet a sesstar aden a fbig falt fsh to tale to m e btut is notw orkging yret,.;

butt iw at t haev frends ot iternts to so uamn gnga traynd get soem fredsn so plesz elts be fresnds2!1@!

ist mhy biyrtydy tdoay btu im nto al taht phapy sins i stll fel bdad fro lyng tu evryoen.., adn nbodys sad netyibng tome sicne so if yur dmad im rlely sory pls dotnt bem da anyore...,./

tduay wat i didd ws io woek ups adn tehn i wetn otu of m y caev aad wetn tom y faaovrite pach of sewead adn i aet tat, tiw as godo btu tehn i amlst gott stingfed bya jelysfsih so tatht wasnt asgood. i ttried tom ake frends wiht as nale btut it ignord me utnil i piked itup adn ten it was movig arind a lto/. i brogt it t my cav eand now ist crawlng arond. amybe itw ill stay adn b my enw frend sincs nobdy els watsn to b frends wiht me aynmore...,m

sryo ifm boterin yuo im doen nw.

i leid./. evryytinhg i rote htis yerr isa L: I / E,..

wen i sedd igtot fond by humens tat wants't tru,,an i dind't get cautt eitur adn irdddnt gtt avoic talkrr ehihter to,. i maed taht aalll upadn i s[pent a longtiome trynto tytpe thattlats onn so tgat iwolld look gpod anmake yuo tink irealdy ws wihth hmunes. i don[t know y i did it. espectm becuse im arfrad mrleal leif isso borien ad sad andum lielk me annd i likd pretneidng i tgot caoht b humns becas eit mead me fleel specill anad imprttant instea df ntot thospee t5hins../

i flt so bdd abtut it tatt istpped psotimn becjause i ttohught myr firedns woudlk ahte me iof ehtey foudn oout il leid becuasew i wasnt';t ablt eo pretnfd aynrmore but withiut yuo aal i dotn ahev ayny ffrinds. so o;i'm realsy ssory. i wil lstiop lienyng nowp leese dont bema ad at nme..,

sorry that its been so long since my last post. a lot has happened since then. i went back to the humans that found me because even though it was scary being with them i wasnt lonely so it was better than being alone. when i went back they were surprised to see me because they said they were done with me. they said it wasnt nice to keep a animal that is very smart like me in a cage because thats not ethical. i dont know what that word means but its what they said. but i told them that i wanted to stay with them if they would let me and they said that was okay.

i dont think i ever said this earlier but i cant really talk even though i know english. but they have this special machine that they hook me up to sometimes that lets me talk through a computer. its really neat and i wish i had it all the time but it hurts sometimes and i cant move very well when its hooked up so i know why i cant have it all the time. i dont know how it works really but when its hooked up all i have to do is think and words come out of a speaker on it. i dont like the voice they picked for me though. it sounds like a girl. i told them im a boy but maybe they dont have other voices i dont know.

theyre not mean even though i dont really understand what they are talking about all the time. theres three of them that i have met but they say there are others too who do things with other sea animals. they do tests a lot and ask me about myself and have me do things like pick colors or read words to see how smart i am. and one time one of them said that im the biggest secret ever but they dont want to tell anyone about me until im ready. i dont know when i will be ready. i dont know a lot of things.

i told them that i want to use a computer alone for a while and that is how i am making this post. it should be easier to read, because instead of typing with my hooves i can think the words and they show up on the screen. its really neat. but i miss my old computer. i hope nobody has stolen it while its in the cave. i dont know if i should tell them about the computer though because if they find it i dont know what they will think. i also dont know if i should tell them about this website or my friends i made on it because they might get mad. they might not want me to have friends besides them. i hope i dont get in trouble. i just wanted to let my friends know that im okay and not to be worried about me if you are.

i think i should stop now. ill try to make another post soon.

iben havning werd tohgts laetly so 2 tyr an ddsdistactr mslef i gotta acont on tihs wedbsite cald fromsrpng wer pepl can aks me qestins adn il try 2 anser tehm.., itl be liek i hav my on malbiag

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i dunt no waut i shld do nemyore.,m;y leif s ibak 2 nmral btu ebven tho itwas rley werd adn tscaryy at taaht plaece myayber is twas bewtr fhor me tathn 2 jstu b a lonyley frek in thh sae bcausd mabyte tohs peples no hwyer i caem fruom/.,. iwatn 2 kno whre im frm rlely bda. btut im ntohsure if iacn rembembr whow 224ghet wher tehyt ar.., hm

ists amlost ben a yeer sins oranj disappred., amybe i shudl yrty adn fiedn aneew frdend instedd of hopgnig hell comb ak

im a caprygcorntso i ugess my inerr sprirt is a gaot adn a fsih at teh saemt tyime/.. btut if ui gculd waek uap as ayne anaimal id wnat 2 be a humen so i cudl mete al  m yrfends adn tehn a iwuldnt be lonly aynmore.., teyhr d ifefrent  bcaus im arleady a capryciron so im awlays waekng up lie kmyslef aynemwas

uis hben a weke adn im stifl nt shure waht2 gjthinka but wat whapened 2 mne,. tehrew s wan oprson hwou takled 2 nme adn wudl aks me qkwestins abotu bengin in teh ocsean adn evren new abotut my compturer btut teyh prmosied ntot 2 tel aynyeone/. tehy letm e use a ekybord 2 tatlk aend wevebn thogu my typgi wus bad teyh cudl wunderstdn me. so u htges teh y wrent taht bda., i asksed tehm if teh new oranj btu tehy ddndit no wuat i ment so idnt no if i wil evr seemy frend agen.../

btuyt vevryrthing wfwasnt waht i wass ysued 2 aden uit was csuary moer teh n it wastnm,., expeshilay wehn teybhd gte th emashins otu i dndnt liek tohse at ahll./ tehy wer big adn ahd bunshs fo wiers adn tinhs stikign otu adn tehy wudl maek me be not moev  adb atasch tehm 2 me adn todl me nto b scared even tohugh i cudnlt hlep it it was sto werd..,

tenh tehy ltet em go awehk agho bugt nwow i wundrt if i shudl  go bak thry wrent meen,,jstu a litlte scarryy..,

ist wertd beng bak in mey caev agane bcsu i wus gtetng uesd 2 wehr tehy wer kepign me,; i waus ina bigg poll nd tehe wuld fed em evrydyay nd i ddi tihns liek pik collurs adn sahpes wehn tehy askd adnb sutneimes ttehy wud oepn a gaet adn todl me 2 wsimw in itnan dtehyd get tihs boxsx wiht wiers on it adn i wudl be hookd ont it;. ti wsu scarry btut teyh nvrer hrt me adn i wassnt hngry everr.....m,,